The 100th Post

It's been two years since I last posted here. Wow. I wound up here again quite by accident, but I'm so glad I did.

Going back through the old posts and comments here was a mind blowing experience. It's like a magical window into a far gone part of my life.

Blogging back then was my escape from my old school and my old town. My old life. Blogger was a place where I could create a new persona, where I could be a star in a bigger pond than some small rural Texas town. But once I left that situation, once I got to Austin, the situation that inspired me to escape into the blog world disappeared.

Things became so much better after I left UNT and Denton behind. I moved to Austin for two and a half years where I got to realize some of the dreams I blogged about. Then I moved to a beautiful town in Colorado to go to my dream school. Now I'm spending the summer in LA interning at Sony Pictures for Spiderman 4.

The world that called for me to blog here has passed away. But I thought it would be nice to leave a message here letting everyone know that I'm very happy and on my way to where I want to be. Thanks for being a part of that. You'll see my name again - elsewhere - very soon.

Not A Return, But

I'm alive, I'm alive, I'm alive.

Drugs In The Texas Capital

I fucking hate what drugs do to people. A few days ago I did a post about marijuana, but I'm not talking about drugs like that or even psychadelics. I'm talking about hard drugs like cocaine and heroin which have suddenly and unfortunately become a part of my life as of late. Charles X, are you using drugs? No, I am not.

I wish I had time to expand more at this moment, but I have a damned test to study for, but I will return later to explain this sudden outrage.

Unintelligible

*THE GOLDEN GLOBES, I LOVE NEW YORK, AND A SPECIAL CHARLES X REMIX TO IRREPLACEABLE*

Cold blooded! The only Golden Globes Dreamgirls lost were the ones associated with Beyonce: leading actress and best song. I'm sorry but she was pity nominated and I think everyone knew she was about to beat Meryl Streep with her weak acting. She took it in stride though and applauded her fellow cast members as they won. Congratulations, Jennifer Hudson! (Cause this time, Effie Whiiiiite is gonna win!) Hopefully this is the beginning of a successful career. She's been under fire recently from the gays, but I am standing by her! I don't agree that she said anything homophobic as the evidence is from a shitty biased article, but to each her own. Eddie Murphy won too- clap clap, I guess. His vocals were better than most expected, but still that's nothing compared to the voice that Jimmy Early is really supposed to have. He is a soul singer, not whatever the hell Eddie Murphy was screeching on "Patience".

I LOVE NEW YORK

Who watches I Love New York For The Hours Of Free Exposure Her Outrageous Antics Afford Me and My Career? You know that you do. With much conflict in my soul, I do as well. Today acting like an uneducated banshee in the wilderness is rewarded with laughter, applause, acclaim, and television deals. I despise Paris Hilton for this, so why shouldn't I equally despise New York?

One difference is that New York is obviously just an extremely drunken amateur actress who has incredible comedic timing and self awareness despite her CONSTANTLY drunken stupor. It's obvious that both her and her mother have serious problems with alcohol abuse and many of the contestants have obvious drug problems themselves.

I found it odd to watch the show on MLK Day. What would the doctor say about this show? You know he would hate it and possibly even speak out about it. I'm just speculating, I don't know. And then again while he is such an important part of the civil rights movement, his opinion isn't/wasn't the end all and be all of black affairs.

Is acting out the show's namesake of loving New York wrong for a progressive black person or any person for that matter? I want your opinion!

Anypoodle, Clay Cane isn't the only one who had a recent run in with Beyonce. I approached the singer about doing a special remix to her #1 song "Irreplaceable" and here are the lyrics I am presenting to her.

UNINTELLIGIBLE

*intro begins*

To the left, to the left.

To the left, to the left.

Mmmm.

Verse 1

To the left, to the left.

My comma, period, and syntax to the left
out to pasture, cause I cain't talk yes
If it's a book, I just don't touch (don't touch!)
I can sing a song just fine, but I can't seem to think and talk at the same time and
it's my name that I can't spell
the last word I spelled right was TRL

Jay-Z standing in the front yard telling me
that I talk like a fool
TALKIN' BOUT
me and Kelly need Hooked On Phonics toooooo
He got me twisted!

He mustn't not know bout me
He mustn't not know bout me

If the script doesn't have some kinda singing in it,
then my mind won't be able to comprehend it, baby

He musn't know bout me
He must not not know bout me

I could read a Dr. Seuss book in a minute
but don't you ever for a second get to thinkin
that it matters if I'm unintelligible

Told my teachers poof be gone
Who needs grammar when yo weave is done
I bet yall think that I didnt know
the secret to acting is squinting your eyeballs!
So what I support George Bush?
I feel him cause we have the same IQ-hooo!
I get tired of interviewing,
I gotta hurry up before the thought train leaves!


Jay-Z standing in the front yard telling me
that I talk like a fool
TALKIN' BOUT
how I need a speech coach toooooo
He got me twisted!

He mustn't know about me
He must must not... me?

I can, like, talk for minutes and minutes
as long as there's no substance in it, baby

He must not not not me
He must must... aw fuck it.

I could recite a Neyo lyric in second
but don't you ever for a second think I'm thinkin... I'm still unintelligibllllllle!
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So do you think she'll work with me? Alicia Keys was pleased with the remix I did with her early last year, she even went as far as to send a steaming pile of shit to my door step.

Mary Jane

Marijuana. Mary Jane. Weed. Pot. The green leaf of many names and appearances rivals alcohol as America's drug of choice. What is it about the plant that has people of all social and economic backgrounds casting aside drug laws to partake in smoking the herb?

Smoking weed has been known to be a bonding experience. Several groups of stoners have become really tight knit after consistent smoky get togethers. While pot can be a unifying factor, it can and has proven to be a divisive subject. The debate about legalizing marijuana has been going for over forty years. We all see the commercials on television about the evils of pot smoking that play right before The Chapelle Show returns featuring a sketch in which the "drug" is glorified.

Which brings me to another point: many don't consider marijuana to be a drug at all and several go as far as to say that weed is less harmful than alcohol. This is one of the main points of the argument for legalizing the leaf. Weed is used for several purposes with the main purpose being to acheive a feeling of relaxation and peace. Many artists use it as a muse as the plant has been known to induce creative juices to flow. Most of the media portrayals of pot depict a group of friends bestowing pearls of "wisdom" to each other, laughing beyond control, and becoming extremely hungry for all kinds of munchies. These weedophiles are often portrayed as slow and dumb, a stereotype often attached to the stoner motif. But are these stereotypes true?

Whether or not you agree with the recreational (as opposed to medicinal) useage of weed, the practice has transcended time, space, class, and race. While other popular drugs continue to fluctuate in popularity, weed continues as the world's drug of choice.

Now for the reader's challenge. Evaluate your view of marijuana and its effect on your life and society as a whole. Is it detrimental or has it gotten a bad rap?

2007

Happy New Queers! I want to know what everybody did to celebrate the holidays. I went to the ghettos of Houston for Christmas. Nothing too eventful transpired, just the usual screaming and bootleg DVDs.

I'm not going to make any New Years Resolutions this year, because last year I didn't keep ne'er a one for long. But I am confident that we are all going to progress greatly in 2007. The year just looks good. It's very pretty looking. 2007.

Speaking With Queer Kid Of Color

We Debate The Use of the Word "Nigger", HIV Controversies, Being Gay & Conservative, And The Bible

I am late on this train. When QueerKidOfColor approached me for an interview for his blogging series, I barely knew who he was, but apparently he is a rising star in the gay media. That's hot and I can dig it. I love to see a young black gay male doing big things.

However, as much as I like the Queer Kid, that hasn't stopped us from having several disagreements within the first conversations of getting to know one another.

In case you haven't already read it, there is a two part interview (Part One & Part Two) up on his blog. We discuss several issues we've both been ready to address with each other such as my "vulgarities", his conservatism, the whole backlash concerning Jamal K. Franklin's knowledge about the blogger knowingly spreading HIV, and homosexuality in the Bible.

When he received backlash for some of his comments, he decided to completely take down my interview. Now y'all know I had to say somethin' about that! His point of view is that he's in the media hotseat now so he has to watch what he says. My stance is that you should be truthful to yourself and your ideals no matter what. And if you say some things in ignorance, then you must realize it and change the situation.

After removing the second part of the interview, it has returned to its place back on his blog and you know want to read this shit! Yes, I said shit! Yes, that is profanity!

Now tell me something good.