Charles X Must Die

I shan't cut a bitch. It is I who has been cut.

If you haven't yet, read my previous post before reading this one.

[Song To Fit The Mood: Donny Hathaway's "Giving Up"]

Today has been one of the worst days of my life. First I do all my math homework and then oversleep through the class, thus creating four zeroes.

I Will Soon Be Dead

Now the moment I've been delaying for months has arrived. My father has FINALLY discovered my lackluster grades from last semester and is on a witchhunt to kill me. Yall think I am playing. He is flying down here to TEXAS from VIRGINIA to come kill me. I'm moving my shit out of my dorm and moving to an undisclosed location. Yall think I am playing. The man has been to war and is a bit touched. He said he is gonna come steal my car and probably cause me physical and psychological harm. Note that I do acknowledge my ass should not be on academic probation, because I am nothing but a genius, but shit I don't deserve the death penalty!

He definitely called me FOURTEEN times from various different strange numbers that I did not respond to. He called my mom talkin' very crazy and told her to tell me to call him. And he said he's definitely coming down here. Um... this man has a 40 hour a week high profile government job... and he's gon leave it just to come murder his son! This is extremely real. Oh, and he told my mom he thinks I'm fuckin with this (straight!) boy named Epi...um... I wish, but no! And how random. He's actually dating one of my best (girl) friends.

They Smile In Ya Face...

Then I discovered Crush asked out Friend-Who-Was-Gon-Get-Cut on a date that shall take place tomorrow (Tuesday). The news was greeted with much sadness, disappointment, and then anger. With this mixed in with today's other events, I was quite saddened to find this news. So many conflicting emotions faced me. I mean, I told Friend-Who-Was-Gon-Get-Cut that I liked this boy before they even met... and now he's gonna go on a date with him? And then didn't even tell me? That seems real scandalous and shady, doesn't it? I never told Crush that I liked him, so I have no one else to direct my emotions at than FWWGGC. On one hand he knew I liked him and I feel he should respect that... on the other hand, Crush asked FWWGGC out and not me.. meaning that he likes him and it would be selfish of me to tell him not to date an awesome guy just because I "saw him first".

And I'm not going to tell him what to do, because I don't own Crush. He was never my boyfriend, we're just really good friends. One thing I'm worried about is freaking Crush the fuck out, because I like him. No, I'm not in love with you, I just think you are an amazing interesting person with whom I have a good time. If we remain friends that's awesome, if it were to become more than even more awesome. I also don't want him to think that I cast him in my show just because I have some thing for him, because I didn't like him until we started hanging out after the audition process. Anyways...

There is my dilemna. I can get mad at FWWGGC because he knows I like Crush, or I can be mature and say "Hey, you know what, he's really cool and I want both of you to be happy". I just don't know. I can be pissed off and be part of the reason a fun group of friends decline or I can swallow my emotions (something I never do) and attempt to preserve the status quo. It doesn't help that FWWGGC still hasn't said anything about it, but I know he's scared of confrontation which I can relate to.

JACKIE ON ROSEANNE IS SUCH A LESBIAN! Sorry about the randomness, Roseanne always make me feel better.

So let me take it to the people...

How should I handle my father? And which of my emotions about Friend-Who-Was-Gon-Get-Cut is justified? I want answers, people!

+Edit+ So I talked to Crush and it was a nice little chat and we talked out a few important things in our relationship which was comforting. Some of the things he said...well, I'll leave that up to your imaginations. If I really like you, I'll give you my personal interpretation. If not, then hell to the naw. And I still want answers to my question!